Unridiculous.

It's not that I want to keep all the truth to myself. It's just I can't find any words that can describe it. I'm terribly out of words right now. I can't think of any person in this world to ask for their permission to lend me their shoulder for me to cry on. I can't. All that I can do is to cry. I'm sorry my dear lil' sister. I'm not as strong as you can see from the outside of me. All the truth is inside. So deep inside and it do killing me slowly. I'm not sure what should I do. I can't think of any plans to let me feel the calm life. I can't find the real me. The deeper I'm searching the more it gives me headache. I can't stop this searching. This is my life I know. But I need a break please. All of this is killing me softly inside. Please just a second please.